Runaway Love

-Love
Walking into the large room where this video shoot was being taken place at, I walked over to my section talking to some people I was told what the theme was and all, I went over to the clothes picking stuff out.
After I picked out some outfits I walked to the persons dressing room Oh damn this is lil Wayne’s room, shaking my head I knocked on the door waiting for someone to answer, when he did I talked to him about the clothes and had people bring in the outfits I picked out. Walking back out front I sat in the chair with ‘Stylist’ written on it. I watched them shoot part of the video and fixed his outfit a couple of times before it was time to leave, walking out the building someone stated calling me turning around it was some white man, he talked to me for a while about modeling for him and shit. After he handed me his card I put it in my purse and got in my car pulling off going home.

[2 weeks later]

Sighing I signed the contract , putting the pen down I looked up and smiled “Congratulations Ms. Lee, Welcome to Nous Model Management. You are officially a model” the man said standing up smiling, puting his hand out he waited for me to shake it. Standing to my feet I shook his hand as Alexis Clapped “Love I’m so happy for you!” She said standing up hugging me as I hugged her back smiling. “We have to celebrate” she said smiling big as hell, laughing I nodded my head “yeah we do” I said happily.

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Alexis got me all dressed up because she said Chris could get us into the club but he had yet to get here, if I’m not mistaking he went without us. Huffing I stood up pulling this tight ass dress down while I walked to the kitchen, opening the freezer I pulled out the basically full bottle of Smirnoff gold. Grabbing a shot glass I filled it to the top “Lexi do you want a shot?” I yelled to her from the kitchen “Hell yeah!” She said walking in the kitchen. Grabbing another shot glass filling it, I gave it to Lexi. Picking up mine I closed my eyes throwing it back as I felt the burning sensation run down my chest. Licking my lips I filled the shot glass up again, throwing it back the burning wasn’t as bad as before. “Damn Love what you planning on doing drinking like that?” Shrugging my shoulders I looked at Lexi “I’m gonna get fuck up!” I said laughing as the alcohol settled in and I started catching a buzz.

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Chris finally came through and got us into this damn club, and I was already lit but fuck it I’m celebrating. Holding my glass up in the air I danced by myself sense everyone else was to bitchy. Moving my hips I took a sip of my drink dancing. Looking around me I seen Alexis coming my way “Boo we leaving, come on” she said leading me out the door to Chris’ car where his friends was at, stumbling a little I held onto the car for support “let’s go back and party some more” I said putting my arms up causing people to laugh at me but hey I didn’t give a fuck I just laughed with them. Getting in the range rover Chris drove to my apartment, putting my head back on the seat I could feel my face burning. Once Chris got to the apartment Alexis and I got out saying bye, we walked up to the apartment. Once I got inside I kicked my heels off and plopped down in the bed.

[Next morning]

Waking up I rubbed my eyes and sat up, but instantly laid back down from this bad ass headache. Putting my hands on my head I got up walking to the bathroom for some Advil , taking the pills washing them down with water. After I brushed my teeth I walked into the kitchen to get me something to eat, after looking around for awhile I made a mental note to go to the grocery store. Putting a strawberry poor art in the toaster I waited until it got warm then took it out eating it on my way to Alexis’ room. “Lexi” I called out when I walked in her room, she didn’t move a muscle so I laid down beside her shaking her she still didn’t move a muscle. Smacking her ass she popped up mugging the hell outta me “Get up boo” I said smiling at her as she rolled her eyes. Huffing I got up going to take a shower, after taking a shower I rubbed lotion all over myself and picked out a outfit Looking in the mirror I smiled, grabbing my purse I walked out to see Alexis sitting on the couch on the phone. I waved bye walking out the apartment I took the elevator down to the lobby walking out to my car. Getting in the car I grove to Walmart listening to music. Pulling up to the Walmart I found the nearest parking lot ‘Im not about to be walking in this heat’ I thought to myself. Walking in Walmart I got a cart and went over to the food section, buying all the food Lexi and I like, I made my way to check out. Paying for my food and putting my bags in the cart made my way back to the car. After all the bags was in the trunk I pushes the cart over to the side and got in my car. Looking at my phone I seen a message from Alexis

Lexi: I know u didnt leave me here!

Smiling I texted her back

Me: You looked busy, who you been talking to anyways?

Locking my phone I put it in my cup holder driving back home.

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Pulling back up to the apartment complex I parked, popping my trunk I grabbed some bags. “Need some help?” A male voice said causing me to jump, turning around I seen Chris laughing at me “Oh my gosh that’s not funny” I said pushing him in the chest “But you could help me” I said smiling at him, he laughed grabbing the rest of the bags I closed the trunk and we made our way up to my apartment. Getting my keys to unlock the door Alexis comes swinging the door open mugging me until she seen Chris “Chrisssy” she said acting like a big ass baby “Don’t call me that shit” he said smiling at her. We sat the bags down on the counters and I started putting the stuff away. “Love, tonight you should cook dinner” Alexis said walking in the kitchen with Chris behind her “do I have to?” I asked and she gave me the side eye “Yes, Chris and Ty are gonna be here” she said looking in the bags for junk food looking at Chris I caught him looking at my ass but I ignored it “Ok” I said shrugging.

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-Love
Running, that’s what I did. I ran until my legs gave up on me until I was basically crawling. I needed to get away from here, I have to get away from here staying here will just kill me, I slow painful death. A death no one wants. Breathing heavily and running I kept falling but I couldn’t give up, not now its to late . I knew I have been running for a long time because it was getting dark, and I knew I was in the city now. I needed a plain ticket, I needed money. Suddenly stopping I looked around at my surroundings ‘Money, Money, Money’ I thought to myself looking at the corner store. It won’t be a lot but maybe enough to get me a plain ticket. Taking my black hoodie out of my back pack I put it on pulling the hoodie over my head and tying the strings so you couldn’t see my face. Walking over to the store I noticed it was some small Indian women behind the register. I prayed to god to forgive me for this sin I was about do.

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Running down the street I stopped a block away from the airport, taking a breathe I speed walked to the airport. Walking into the large airport I looked around for a bathroom, finding it I ran into it going into a stall and locking it. Pulling the money out of my back pack, counting the money I had $800 enough to get me somewhere. Buying the only flight that was taking off in 15 minutes I made my way to a seat waiting for them to call my flight.

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Getting off the plane I took the hoody off because it was way to hot for that. Holding onto my back pack straps I made my way out of the airport looking at the sign “WELCOME TO CALIFORNIA” in big letters I shook my head, I never thought I would be here.

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[One month later]

To say I was finally happy was an understatement, I finally got away. For this last month I stayed in a homeless shelter for 3 weeks while I worked then I got an apartment with a room mate, her names Alexis she’s cool we became friends and all. And now I’m living it up, I graduated high school and now I’m getting my collage degree, I have night classes because I work during the day as a personal stylist. I’m good at it too, I usually work with famous people like Nicki Minaj, I worked With Kim Kardashian a few times and I also worked with Beyoncè! Sometimes I even work for video shoots and all that, yeah I have a pretty cool job and I make good money. Oh I even sent the $800 back to that store. Today was Saturday and I was off Alexis wanted to go shopping so I agreed. Putting lip gloss to my lips I smiled at myself in the mirror “Love, come on you take forever” Alexis said huffing causing me to roll my eyes “whatever” I said grabbing my car keys I locked the apartment door and took the elevator to the garage.

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Pulling up to the mall I parked the car and got out locking my car doors. “We should go to the movies after this, I want to see the new fast 6” Alexis said getting happy causing me to laugh “Yeah I wanna see that too” I said as we walked in the mall. Our first stop was at Forever 21, looking on the clothes rack I held up a shirt “What do you think of this” I asked Alexis and she smiled “I like that” “Good” I said laughing. We shopped in there for a little longer and I didn’t find much , paying for our stuff we went to urban outfitters , now this is my store! Looking around I find a cute pair of high wasted shorts “Lexi I’m going to try these on” I said holding up the shorts walking to the dressing room. Looking at myself in the mirror with the shorts on I smiled. Coco butter is like magic, in no time the scars on my knees started to disappear, but let me stop I sound like a commercial. smiling at my thoughts I changed back to my pants and went to pay for my stuff. “Oh that food smells good as hell” Lexi said getting hype nodding we walked over to some Chinese food ordering some, we sat down and ate it. Looking up from my food, I looked around my surroundings. That’s something I do a lot, I’m always paranoid and Alexis just thinks its from me growing up in hood. No one knows my story but God and I’m planning on keeping it that way. “What you thinking about?” Alexis asked looking at me “Nothing” I said shaking my head getting up to throw my food away. Walking back over to Alexis I grabbed my purse looking for my keys, grabbing them we walked out to my car putting our bags in my trunk.

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Walking out of the movie theater listening to Alexis favorite parts I looked around the dark parking lot. “Oh Love my brothers having a party tonight, that’s where we should go” she said looking at her phone, she had a brother? “Um I don’t know” I said sliding into the drivers side. “Come on it will be fun, you need to get out” sighing I started up my car pulling out of the parking lot. “Ok I will go but if I don’t like it I’m leaving” I said looking at the road “ok ok deal” she said, I looked at her from the corner of my eye to see her smiling shaking my head I drove home.

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Looking in my full length mirror I had on black leather leggings, white crop top shirt and my bred 11’s. puffing up my curly hair I rubbed my lips together. “Love you ready?” Alexis yelled from outside my door “Yeah I’m coming” I yelled back looking at myself one more time before walking out my room. “Come on” I said to Alexis walking out the apartment, putting in the address Alexis gave to me we rode in silence to the house. Pulling up in front of some huge ass mansion I looked over at Alexis “Just park over there” she said pointing to an empty spot. Huffing I parked in front of the house, stepping out I pushed my purse under the passenger seat locking my doors I followed Alexis into the house. A cloud of smoke came rolling out the front door once she opened it, waving my hand in front of my face I scrunched up my nose from the intense smell of weed. Walking around a bit Alexis started smiling big then ran up jumping on some guys back who I’m assuming to be her brother, watching them interact the guy turned to me looking me up and down “Oh Chr-I mean Breezy this is my best friend Love, Love this is Breezy my brother” she said rolling her eyes I smiled and nodded “Hi” I said trying to see what his face looked like but it was way to dark. He didn’t say anything he just turned around and talked to some girl ‘rude’ I said to myself. Rolling my eyes I looked around trying to find Alexis, great now she wants to disappear some friend she is. Walking over to an empty couch I sat down pulling out my phone huffing I scrolled through instagram liking pictures “Love do you wanna go? Because you can if you come pick me up in the morning” Lexi said I looked up at her nodding “I’ll get you around 12 , if that’s ok?” I said waiting for her reply “Yeah that’s cool, bye” she said smiling at me and we hugged. Walking out of the house I made it to my car unlocking the door I slid in starting the car I drive off.

***
Waking up I just laid here playing on my phone and taking pictures, taking a picture I was satisfied with I posted it
@LoveLee

Woke up but to lazy to get up 😒

Putting my phone on the nightstand I got up and went to the bathroom. Hopping in the shower I did my hygiene thing then hopped out wrapping a towel around me and my hair, going to the sink I brushed my teeth. Going in my closet I rubbed my body down with coco butter then put on some red lace Victoria secret underwear and a matching bra. Look through my clothes I decided to just go simple so I threw on my outfit and sprayed some leave in conditioner in my hair. I grabbed my car keys and purse then walked out to my car getting in.

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Pulling up to the same big ass mansion from last night I parked my car getting out, walking up the steps to the front door I rung the door bell. Waiting for someone to answer the door I pulled out my phone looking at the time, when the door opened I looked up at the guy from last night Lexis brother ‘damn whats his name?’ I thought to myself. Smiling I looked up at him “Hey Windy I’m here for Alexis” I seen him clench his jaw “it’s Breezy” he said and I nodded my head embarrassed “Sooo” I said as a cue for him to go get Lexi, he stepped aside and I walked behind him into the kitchen seeing Lexi looking in the cabinets “Chris you have no damn food here!” She said turning around seeing me she smiled big “thank gosh your here Love, let’s go get something to eat!” She said rolling her eyes at Breezy, Chris whatever the fuck his name is. “Umm, IHOP?” I asked she nodded drinking her water “Do you want to come?” I ask just being nice since we was talking about going in front of him. “Yeah Chris come with us big bro” Lexi said punching his arm because she couldn’t reach his shoulder “iight i’ll go” he said laughing at her , damn his smile.

-Love
Sitting in the corner of my room I brought my knees up and sat my chin on them, it was about that time when he gets home the time I hated. Hearing the front door open and shut I closed my eyes praying he would just leave me alone, praying I could be anywhere but here but unfortunately my prayers weren’t answered because my bedroom door was pushed open, keeping my eyes shut I wish and prayed I could disappear but I knew it wasn’t going to happen who am I kidding it happens everyday after school, only if I could get away. Being yanked up brought be out of my thoughts “What the fuck are you doing on the floor!” My father yelled in my face getting spit on my, looking into his yellow eyes I shivered “I-I was um-” I was cut short when I was slapped in my face leaving a painful sting “shut the fuck up bitch” he said shoving me onto my knees. I closed my eyes and prayed one more time until I heard the zipper to his pants being unzipped, him grabbing the back of my head and shoving his man hood in my mouth caused my eyes to pop open and tears to roll down my eyes. Putting my hands on his thighs and pushing him back only caused him to slap me in my face making me bite him. “You stupid bitch” he yelled dragging me to the kitchen by my hair “let me go” I cried out, I was punched in my face several times before he got tired and stopped. Laying on the floor crying I felt like nothing but dirt, why would my own father treat me like this? What did I do? , those questions always swam in my head but if I even dared to ask him those I most likely would be dead. Hearing the grits hit the floor caused me to cry even more. “You know what to do bitch” he said pulling me up by my hair, putting my knees in the Un-cooked grits I cried, it hurt so bad. Everytime I didn’t listen I would be beat up then forced to put my knees in dry grits for four hours, no one knows how bad this hurts. Silent tears fell down my cheeks as my father walked out the kitchen with no remorse.

[4 hours later]

“Clean that shit up” he snapped at me because I wasn’t sweeping the grits up fast enough. Throwing away the grits with my blood on them I turned around looking down at the ground, I couldn’t even cry anymore. Hearing him walk out of the kitchen it was my signal to go, limping to the bathroom I locked the door and grabbed a clean old rag with bleach stains on it. Putting the rag under hot water I squeezed the rag so water wouldn’t get everywhere I carefully wiped the dried up blood and grits off my knees I closed my eyes pressing the rag on my knee. After I cleaned my knees I rinsed the blood out of the rag and laid it on the side of the sink so it would dry, walking into the living room all you could smell was pee from where he would get drunk and pee on himself. Standing on the side of the couch waiting for him to notice me, when he finally did I cleared my throat “What do you want for dinner?” I asked just above a whisper “Food you dumb bitch” nodding my head i walked into the messy kitchen I try to keep clean and made spaghetti.

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Putting the spaghetti and a cold beer on the table I called my dad into the kitchen. Once he walked in he instantly clenched his jaw “what the fuck is this” he roared at me getting closer to me “s-s-spaghetti, yo-ou said you wanted food” I said looking up at him shaking, feeling like a chihuahua standing in front of a pit bull. His obnoxious laugh startled me, he walked closer to me pushing me onto the ground and throwing the food on my. He grabbed the beer and chugged it down, throwing the glass bottle at me it hit my arm causing me to cry out as he laughed and walked out the door. Standing up slowly I held my arm while it bled I walked over to the kitchen sink washing it off.

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After cleaning up the kitchen i took a shower while my father was gone because I didn’t want him coming in here, I got dressed in the bathroom just incase he came back then I ran across the hall to my bedroom. Pulling the covers over my cold body I cried myself to sleep.

[The next morning]

Quickly opening my eyes when I seen the sunlight shine through my bedroom window I jumped up putting on some old jeans, a old red shirt with tiny holes in it and my worn out grey converse, the only shoes I have but they will have to do. Pulling my hair up in a messy bun I grabbed my back pack basically running out the door to the apartment or should I say hell? Apartment 23, the apartment I lived in is the only place I hate, the place I have to come back to but surely don’t want to. Walking down the road to the bus stop I sat on the bench rubbing my knees, they hurt. Seeing the bus from a distance I stood to my feet waiting for it once it arrived I walked up the steps to the bus and I swear I wanted to cry my knees hurt so bad. Taking a seat near the back I put my head down making eye contact with no one.
Once the bus stopped at the bus stop a block away from the school I got off and walked the block to school, this was what I did every morning I just want a education so I can get far away from here. Walking into the school going to my locker so I can get my books for my first class I noticed people laughing at me, most likely from the bluish purple hand print on my cheek on the red hand marks around my neck. Putting my head down I made it to my locker and I quickly grabbed my books and walked to my first class taking a seat way in the back.

[Lunch time]

My day was going by to fast and I hated days like this, most kids loved it but if they had to go back to where I came from they would hate it too. I get free lunch so that’s never a problem I quickly got my chicken nuggets with my fries, taking the seat at the lunch table in the far back corner I always sat at, I opened my book bag looking for my plastic ziplock bag. Quickly putting some nuggets and fries in it I put it back in my book bag. Eating slowly so I get full faster I looked up noticing people looking at me, sighing I ate the rest of my food and walked to the library the one place I love, where I can pretend I have the perfect life with my momma and daddy, maybe even a little brother or sister.

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Walking around the corner to the apartment complex I seen my father outside with some big black man, I knew what was going to happen and I didn’t want it to, not again. I quickly turned around speed walking so they didn’t see me I thought of something, the perfect plan. It was like someone was telling me to do it, as if my mother was telling me to do it “Runaway Love”

What do you do when your 10 years old and watch your mother get beat? Or yet a better question, what do you do when you are held back by a man and watch your mother get killed by your father at the age of 13? Living this life is not easy, it’s a painful hurtful life filled with enough pain to kill one. Some may say I’m strong for making it out alive, some say I was dumb for staying as long. You can have your opinion but please do not judge me. When you are in my shoes and walk the same path as me, you must judge me. But please remember “Those who judge, will be judged.”